i only keep high school friends on facebook as a way to pat myself on the back.  there are probably two exemptions.  first, my firend joe.  he plays music and lives in st charles.  i hang out with him every now and then and he really enjoys what he is doing.  and he is making it.  the other is -maybe- my friend aj.  he really diggs his g/f / soon to be wife.  i really dug her at first, as well. *however* i went home for a week [the last time i’m ever going back] and she ran him over (with a car).  it was insane.  i’m really worried he will get married too soon and regret it/divorce/etc.  but i’m going to keep my mouth shut with that situation because [believe it or not] i think he is in the most sustainable relationship in cape county.

this is where it gets insane.

i mostly keep other close friends just out of a self-sustaining pity party for myself.  they’re dating girls that haven’t even graduated high school.  in less than a year and a half i’ll graduate from UNIVERSITY [which isn’t even that hard/expensive] and put down money on a condo on the east/west [non-fly over state coast] and they’ll still be stuck out in the middle of nowhere.  their reaction is calling me ‘pretentious’  but i mean, come the fuck on.  i’m not pretentious.  i just got the fuck out and i’m doing something with my life other than working [or not working] at the cape g.  old navy and fucking with high school girls and trying to graduate from a state uni.  its fucking hilarious.  they talk about things like they know about it.  you have never been to a music festival.  i have been to several.  you did not buy tickets to see queen + the early november [freddie mercury is dead and EN called it quits 3-4 years ago].  you are so full of it.  you were back then, and you are now as well.

i need to stop drinking.  making fun of people that are going nowhere with their lives is is so easy/fun/’pretentious’/hxcorex/capecounty/1:20am.

but seriously all i have to say is ‘whassssssuppp.  i’m graduating soon.  what the fuck are you up to?’

“not too much” ?

every time i see someone on facebook from cape complaining about being bored i just want to shoot myself.  or them out of self-pity.  i would much rather shoot myself in the head then go back there for any reason what.so.ever.